I am seeking consistency.
Stability.

I want to understand motivation
and being on time
and following through.

To do what I say I'll do.

I should take responsibility
and be genuine
and step up
and take care of my own shit.

You are not the only person who has called me out on this.

I'm so sorry I hurt you
and shattered your trust
and just now figured it out.

I'm no angel
but I never realized
I'm so inconsiderate.

When will I ever change?!
What's wrong with me?!

Help. Help. Help.